Pari CR 12.5 Tablet

Pari CR 12.5 Tablet

Prescription: Required
Manufacturer: Ipca Laboratories Ltd
SALT COMPOSITION: Paroxetine (12.5mg)
Storage: Store below 30°C

CR: Controlled Release

Paroxetine, sold under the brand names Paxil and Seroxat among others, is an antidepressant of the selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI) class. It is used to treat major depressive disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety disorder, posttraumatic stress disorder, generalized anxiety disorder and premenstrual dysphoric disorder. It has also been used in the treatment of premature ejaculation and hot flashes due to menopause. It is taken by mouth.

Common side effects include drowsiness, dry mouth, loss of appetite, sweating, trouble sleeping, and sexual dysfunction. Serious side effects may include suicidal thoughts in those under the age of 25, serotonin syndrome, and mania. While the rate of side effects appears similar compared to other SSRIs and SNRIs, antidepressant discontinuation syndromes may occur more often. Use in pregnancy is not recommended, while use during breastfeeding is relatively safe. It is believed to work by blocking the re-uptake of the chemical serotonin by neurons in the brain.

Paroxetine was approved for medical use in the United States in 1992 and initially sold by GlaxoSmithKline. It is on the World Health Organization's List of Essential Medicines. It is available as a generic medication. In 2019, it was the 78th most commonly prescribed medication in the United States, with more than 9 million prescriptions. In 2018, it was in the top 10 of most prescribed antidepressants in the United States. In 2012, the United States Department of Justice fined GlaxoSmithKline $3 billion for withholding data, unlawfully promoting use in those under 18, and preparing an article that misleadingly reported the effects of paroxetine in adolescents with depression following its clinical trial study 329.



IUPAC name
(3S,4R)-3-[(2H-1,3-benzodioxol-5-yloxy)methyl]-4-(4-fluorophenyl)piperidine

Introduction

Pari CR 12.5 Tablet is a type of antidepressant belonging to the selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI) group of medicines. It is widely prescribed to treat depression and anxiety-related conditions like obsessive-compulsive disorder, and panic disorder.

Pari CR 12.5 Tablet helps many people to recover from depression by improving their mood and relieving anxiety and tension. It can be taken with or without food. The dose and how often you need it will be decided by your doctor so that you get the right amount to control your symptoms.

Your doctor may start you on a lower dose and increase it gradually. Do not change the dose or stop taking it without talking to your doctor, even if you feel well. Doing so may make your condition worse or you may suffer from unpleasant withdrawal symptoms (anxiety, restlessness, palpitations, dizziness, sleep disturbances, etc).

To get the most benefit, take this medicine regularly at the same time each day. Your doctor may advise you to take it in the morning if you have trouble sleeping. It may take a few weeks before you start feeling better. Let your doctor know if you do not see any improvement even after 4 weeks.

Some common side effects of Pari CR 12.5 Tablet include nausea, fatigue, dry mouth, loss of appetite, increased sweating, dizziness, nervousness, tremors, insomnia (difficulty in sleeping), and constipation. Sexual side effects like decreased sexual drive, delayed ejaculation, and erectile dysfunction may also be seen. Let your doctor know straight away if you develop any sudden worsening of mood or any thoughts about harming yourself.

Before taking this medicine, you should tell your doctor if you have epilepsy (seizure disorder or fits), diabetes, liver or kidney disease, heart problems, or glaucoma. These may affect your treatment. Pregnant or breastfeeding women should also consult their doctor before taking it. Some other medicines may affect the way it works, especially other antidepressants and medicines called MAO inhibitors. Please tell your doctor about all the medicines you are taking to make sure you are safe.

Uses of Pari Tablet CR

1. Treatment of Depression
2. Treatment of Panic disorder
3. Treatment of Anxiety disorder

Benefits of Pari Tablet CR

In Treatment of Depression
Pari CR 12.5 Tablet works by increasing the level of a chemical called serotonin in the brain. This improves your mood, relieves anxiety, tension, and helps you sleep better. It has fewer side effects than older antidepressants. It usually takes 4-6 weeks for this medicine to work so you need to keep taking it even if you feel it is not working. Do not stop taking it, even if you feel better unless your doctor advises you to.

In Treatment of Panic disorder
Pari CR 12.5 Tablet can help relieve symptoms of many panic disorders including panic attacks. It can help you feel calmer and improve your ability to deal with problems. Do not stop taking it, even when you feel better, unless your doctor advises you to.

In Treatment of Anxiety disorder
Pari CR 12.5 Tablet helps relieve symptoms of many anxiety disorders including obsessive-compulsive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder by increasing the level of a chemical called serotonin in your brain. It has fewer side effects than older antidepressants and is normally taken once a day. It helps you feel calm with a better ability to deal with problems. Exercise and a healthy diet can also improve your mood. Keep taking the medicine until your doctor advises you to stop.

Side effects of Pari Tablet CR
Most side effects do not require any medical attention and disappear as your body adjusts to the medicine. Consult your doctor if they persist or if you’re worried about them:
Common side effects of Pari:

1. Nausea
2. Fatigue
3. Dryness in mouth
4. Loss of appetite
5. Increased sweating
6. Dizziness
7. Nervousness
8. Tremor
9. Low sexual desire
10. Insomnia (difficulty in sleeping)
11. Confusion
12. Constipation
13. Erectile dysfunction
14. Delayed ejaculation
15. Decreased libido

How Pari CR works

Pari CR 12.5 Tablet is a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI) antidepressant. It works by increasing the levels of serotonin, a chemical messenger in the brain. This improves mood and physical symptoms of depression and also relieves symptoms of panic disorder, anxiety, and obsessive-compulsive disorder.

Quick tips
1. It can take 2-3 weeks for Pari CR 12.5 Tablet to start working.
2. Do not stop treatment suddenly as this may cause upset stomach, flu-like withdrawal symptoms and sleep disturbance.
3. If your doctor asks you to stop Pari CR 12.5 Tablet, you should reduce the dose slowly over 4 weeks.
4. Avoid consuming alcohol when taking Pari CR 12.5 Tablet, as it may cause excessive drowsiness and calmness.
5. The addiction/dependence potential of Pari CR 12.5 Tablet is very less. 

Interaction with drugs

Taking Pari with any of the following medicines can modify the effect of either of them and cause some undesirable side effects
Linezolid
Brand(s): Lizolan, Lidoford, Zenlid
LIFE-THREATENING

Moclobemide
Brand(s): Trima, Rimarex, Morex
LIFE-THREATENING

Rasagiline
Brand(s): Rasalect, Relgin, Rasipar
LIFE-THREATENING

Reboxetine
Brand(s): Rebotin
LIFE-THREATENING

Fact Box

Chemical Class: Phenylpiperidine Derivative
Habit Forming: No
Therapeutic Class: NEURO CNS
Action Class: Selective Seretonin Reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs)

Tags: Medicine,Science,Technology,

Big Data Analytics & Business (By Yaju Gupta)

Contents

1. Business & Business Intelligence
2. Intelligent Decision Making 
3. Factors affecting BI capability

4. Data Analytics
5. Importance of Data Analytics 
6. Big Data
7. Advantages of Big Data Analytics
8. Challenges in BDA
9. Big Data Analytics Model
10. BDA Implementation

11. Real world BI Examples

Business
 
Dealing in any activity to earn profit. For example: Selling or Buying of  goods and services (products)  

Business Intelligence 

A set of theories, methodologies, architectures and technologies that transform raw data into meaningful and useful information for business purposes.

BI helps in identifying, develop & create new business strategies and effective decision making through historical, operational and predictive views of business operations.

Intelligent Decision Making

Real time / On time availability of High Quality Information for decision making process  regarding a scenario, situation or problem under consideration

Factors affecting BI capability

Amount, Type, Efficiency and Output format of the analyzed data to be used by decision makers.

Data Analytics

The process of reviewing existing data with multiple angles / dimensions with the intention of finding new additional information based on retrieved co-relations / hidden patterns

Importance of Data Analytics

Organizations uses data for the optimized utilization of all available resources in order to achieve  predefined goals ( Decision making )

Nowadays, organizations are more reliant on data to drive business decision to foster innovation & development  

As per IBM, a very large amount of data being created on daily basis: (In Terra / Zetta Bytes)

Big Data 

Very large in size ( In TB / ZB ), Structured to Unstructured, and Generates very fastly on continuous basis from multiple locations.
( Dimensions : Volume, Variety  & Velocity )

For example : Sensor data (Climate data), CCTV Data, Log Files, Posts on S-N sites, Online Shopping sites data, Call Records, Airlines Data, Hospitality Data, Wikipedia Text and Images

Advantages of Big Data Analytics

1. Higher Customer Satisfaction
2. Improved Business Processes
3. Increased Revenue
4. Reducing Operating Cost and Time
5. Gaining Competitive  Advantages of Business
6. Customized Products ( On Individual customer basis )

Challenges in BDA

Capturing, Storing, Searching, Classification , Clustering,  Analyzing and Visualization of data 

Requirement of running S/w applications on number of nodes in parallel to process a very huge amount of data 

Big Data Analytics Model: Map Reduce Programming Model

A distributed programming model that support parallel processing of data on number of nodes 

Components of Map Reduce : 

1. Input Reader 
2. Output Writer
3. Map and Reduce Function  
4. Partitioning Function  
5. Comparison Function

BDA Implementation

Apache Hadoop Framework  ( 100 % Open Source ): An Implementation of Map Reduce Programming Model

# A Java based framework to process data in parallel on a distributed computing environment  ( Cloud Computing )

# Provides new way of storing and analyzing a huge amount of data ( In TB / ZB ) 

# Cost Effective solution

Hadoop Components

# Map Reduce Framework
# Hive ( Data Analytics & SQL Development )
# Cluster ( Data Loading : Sqoop and Flume )
# Zookeeper ( Hadoop Services Management )
# Ozzie ( Nodes Management )
# HBase ( NoSql - Database )  
# Distributed File System (HDFS)
				
Power Of Hadoop

# Distributed File System
# Fast data transfer rate in between various nodes
# Easier and Quick Recovery from any failure with minimal interruption of services
				
Design Consideration 

# Emerging M2M Communication based market
# Locations, Devices and Network associated with data
# Processing of Complex and Unstructured data 
# Gaining Competitive Advantages of Business

Real world BI Examples 

Business Intelligence has infinite potential uses in organization. BI solutions are used by almost all kind of organizations or companies to drive business decisions. For example :

Telecom Domain
To decide either to invest their resources into securing new customers or engage existing ones and turn them into repeat buyers ( Customer behaviors analysis ) 

Retail Domain
To create better shopping experience for customers and making  business profitable ( By putting trends together to stock popular items before they became in high demand and afterward inventory will not stuck with excess )

Market Research 
To engage relevant customers, illuminate customer trends and uncover their needs & personal preferences ( Historical data analysis ) 

Hospital Quality and Efficiency of Care 
To achieve the goal of having every patient seen by a doctor within 45 minutes of arrival or to improve efficiency of care ( Patients Arrival, Doctors Availability, Turnaround & Bed availability metrics analysis ) 

Sales Forecasting
Historical, Operational and Predictive analysis using Sales data 

Credits
Yajuvendra Gupta

Tags: Big Data,

A Toast About a Toast (2021-Dec-23)

Index of Journals

I was a guest at the ToastMasters Club meeting yet again. This time I also brought a friend, yes, you are right. Sakshi Dahiya. And here I am, making the same mistake again that I made at the meeting. That mistake is digressing.

The reason that I digressed during my Table Topics speech is that I thought I had fully understood the topic, but I did not process it to put a story around it. I did not take my 10 seconds of time to build the speech in my head.

When I started, I thought I had it in control and I was fluent and smooth but after only a couple of seconds (maybe 30), I had to ask the Table Topics master about the topic again. (And I have always thought that I am a great speaker. Am not. ToastMasters Club reminded me of that again.)

The table topic was: What's my perspective of ToastMasters and What benefits do I see of Toastmasters?

That is what I remember of the topic from the second time that I heard it.

While writing about it now, I barely think of it as a topic and think that it is more of a two-part question. A rather simple 'topic' if it is one.

I was very confident at first and then mayhem happened. I was in the middle of my speech, which had roughty taken 30 seconds and then I apologized for digressing and asked the Table Topics Master for my topic again.

Next when I started again I stayed stuck to the topics as I needed no introduction and the topic was more of a question.

In the speech, I said that it has become more of a cliche if you say "ToastMasters improves your communication skills" and then went on to mention that ToastMasters helps you build social network and in networking, which was why I was there.

A mistake I remember was calling ToastMasters members by their first names without prefixing with the words "toast master" as in "Toastmaster Samitha".

I hope I would learn something from this yet another "Guest" mode tint with ToastMasters club and the meeting ended with Toastmasters giving awards such as "Most Daring Guest" (a new thing I was seeing this time) to few guest members and then closing the meeting a pitch for membership to the guests.

2011-Jul-1

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July 1, 2011

The day was an in-and-out. I had college but I was not in a position to go anywhere.
It was 0330 when I went to bed. I turned the fan off before getting to sleep. The SOB is a difficult thing to handle. I was freezing in June (July actually) in such a normal environment. I went to bed a double-bed sheet on me other than the blanket that I have. I was awake early around 0630 and I then slept in amma’s room. I was awake again when they returned from temple around 0830 and everybody learned of me down with fever. 
I was sleeping in Anu’s room until 1130 after this. I had 102 degree Celsius body temperature. Around 0830, I had vomited the milk which amma out of madness of her home remedies made me drink with three tablets of unusual sizes. I hadn’t eaten anything yet. I didn’t want to eat anything now either. I had juice this time. I was tired of being in bed for so long and wanted to sit for a while. Chachi had come to the room when I was sleeping and she was being funny in the situation. She had touched a freezing thing on my arm and then felt the heat by her hand, silly as always. She was offering me to eat what she had made for breakfast but nothing was meant to eaten in fever. I was thinking what the hell is wrong with her.
I was sleeping in my room and amma came to give me medicine around 1400. Crocine gives you an almost instantaneous feeling of improvement, or is it actually like that? I was awake by the sound of the TV around 0300 when I had heard Kanye West singing Heartless on VH1 outside. I went there to listen to the song. I was not well yet. I had just bettered a little bit though. I watched TV for a while and then I had shikanji and tea from chachi. I was doing programming for two hours in the dusk. I had tomato soup around 1930 made by amma, it had too much of black pepper in it, it gave a burning sensation in throat with every sip but I still drank it because it was going to help anyway.
I was sleeping again around 2030 and I had milk and a bread slice in half sleep.
God bless me
Ashish

Augmentin 625 Duo Tablet (Amoxycillin (500mg) + Clavulanic Acid (125mg))

Augmentin 625 Duo Tablet
Prescription: Required
MANUFACTURER: Glaxo SmithKline Pharmaceuticals Ltd
SALT COMPOSITION: Amoxycillin (500mg) + Clavulanic Acid (125mg)
STORAGE: Store below 30°C

INTRODUCTION

Augmentin 625 Duo Tablet is a penicillin-type of antibiotic that helps your body fight infections caused by bacteria. It is used to treat infections of the lungs (e.g., pneumonia), ear, nasal sinus, urinary tract, skin, and soft tissue. It will not work for viral infections such as the common cold.

Augmentin 625 Duo Tablet is best taken with a meal to reduce the chance of a stomach upset. You should take it regularly at evenly spaced intervals as per the schedule prescribed by your doctor. Taking it at the same time every day will help you to remember to take it. The dose will depend on what you are being treated for, but you should always complete a full course of this antibiotic as prescribed by your doctor. Do not stop taking it until you have finished, even when you feel better. If you stop taking it early, some bacteria may survive and the infection may come back or worsen.

The most common side effects of this medicine include vomiting, nausea, and diarrhea. These are usually mild but let your doctor know if they bother you or will not go away.

Before taking it, let your doctor know if you are allergic to any antibiotics or have any kidney or liver problems. You should also let your healthcare team know about all other medicines you are taking as they may affect, or be affected by, this medicine. This medicine is generally regarded as safe to use during pregnancy and breastfeeding if prescribed by a doctor.

BENEFITS OF AUGMENTIN TABLET

In Treatment of Bacterial infections
Augmentin 625 Duo Tablet contains two different medicines, Amoxycillin and Clavulanic Acid, that work together to kill the bacteria that cause infections. Amoxycillin works by stopping the growth of bacteria. Clavulanic Acid reduces resistance and enhances the activity of Amoxycillin against bacteria.

This combination medicine can be used to treat many different bacterial infections such as ear, sinus, throat, lung, urinary tract, skin, teeth, joints, and bones. It usually makes you feel better within a few days, but you should continue taking it as prescribed even when you feel better to make sure that all bacteria are killed and do not become resistant.

SIDE EFFECTS OF AUGMENTIN TABLET

Most side effects do not require any medical attention and disappear as your body adjusts to the medicine. Consult your doctor if they persist or if you’re worried about them
Common side effects of Augmentin:
Vomiting
Nausea
Diarrhea

Quick tips

1. You have been prescribed this combination medicine to treat bacterial infections even if they have developed resistance. 

2. Finish the prescribed course, even if you start to feel better. Stopping it early may make the infection come back and harder to treat.

3. Diarrhea may occur as a side effect. Taking probiotics along with Augmentin 625 Duo Tablet may help. Talk to your doctor if you notice bloody stools or develop abdominal cramps.

4. Take it with food and plenty of fluids to avoid an upset stomach.

5. Stop taking Augmentin 625 Duo Tablet and inform your doctor immediately if you develop an itchy rash, swelling of the face, throat or tongue or breathing difficulties while taking it.

6. Do not use leftover medicine for treating any infection in the future. Always consult your doctor before taking any antibiotic.

Fact Box

Habit Forming: No
Therapeutic Class: ANTI INFECTIVES

Tags: Medicine,Technology,Science,

2011-Jun-30

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June 30, 2011
I am not well. I had cold since morning and then today I was made to attend the lab. She called my name right in the morning and was sending me to Prashant sir. I skidded to Shaqeel sir sitting on the first bench and he just let me sit for one last time today and the others as well. I told them that I was suffering from headache. Rakhi spoke to me the first time; it was to clear a doubt. I had cold and I could feel it in my voice. I still spoke to clear her doubt but she had to call the teacher finally, I wasn’t wrong I figured out, though I was confused, which is my usual characteristic. The chapter of Nidhi is over and Sakshi is I don’t know yet. Eye contacts from her side are a direct call for a conversation but I don’t know how to approach.
The chapter of Vibha is over. I had to purchase bread pakoda from canteen to put myself in the spending-mode so that I can attract people, you know who. 
I attended the lab and I realized that I was making the silliest mistakes that I a novice to programming would make. It was giving me tension and due to cold I was finding myself very slow. I attended the lab and was thinking about the shit I was doing in the lab, god. Ma’am had to sit and correct them all.
I came back home in the rain, it rained when I was on foot while on my way from college to metro station. I shouldn’t have been wet but I didn’t bother. I became sicker by the time I got back home and I simply popped a pill and went to bed. I woke and did two Java programs in two hours. It felt good and it is feeling worse due to cold. I need some rest.
It is 0247 midnight and I am awake and programming, special thanks to the asshole Prxnt. He turned on cooler and fan on the highest. I had to get up and change direction to not become sicker. I will not go to college tomorrow. I need to get some rest, so I will keep it off.
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-29

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A humble request to all group members:
Friends please delete Ashish Jain from your friend list because he crosses his limits of vulgarity. He is VULGAR and DESPERATE and don’t know how to RESPECT a girl. So please delete him from your friend list before someone becomes the victim of his bullshit VULGARITY. If you think that I’m right than please support me.
Abhishek Shukla: What else u can expect from him???? He’s been doin this stuff time and again; still u people took that lightly. I don’t know why? >B-(
Kriti Bahl: USKI MAAA******* KAL COLLEGE MEIN BATAONGEE USKO 3like
Raghav Agarwal: USNE PIC BABA RAMDEV KI LAGA RAKHI HAIIIII AUR HARKATE DEKHOOOOO… 4like
Akash Rajpoot: ABE ATTENTION SEEKER H SALA!! SABSE BADA FAKE….   1like
Abhishek Shukla: Psycho sala… needs to be into a rehab... every time trying to prove himself superior… but he’s nothing better than a fucking loser….>B-(    1like
Kriti Bahl: THURKII ULLU KA PATHA 2like
Dhan Raj: SAALA “SCUMBAG ASSHOLE”
Rizwan Khan: abey Kriti!!!! KUCH TO IJJAT DE DIYA KAR ISE
Dhan Raj: ABEY WO SALA IZZAT KE LAYAK HI NHI HAI...

June 29, 2011
Nidhi was a dead end. She has, just like how it should be and like any other girl, interest in rich and big boys. I was sitting on her left and she would look here at me if I would be looking in my right. She has to confirm that she is not being watched, pretty much an abnormal mental state. She would look away with attitude on realizing that Ashish Jain is not a dog and she was the attention of nobody. I had reached class at ten and I was buttoning two buttons left in mid away from toilet to class. Prashant sir, Kuldeep sir, and the third sir were at a distance of about 100 meters and Prashant sir was not even looking here. I slid through the closed door and went to sit on the last bench with the lady teacher. After a minute Kuldeep sir and Prashant sir entered the room to call me out. While Prashant sir was telling me for coming there passed a late comer of other course and another late comer came to our class. He made us write an application and then left. Sir didn’t act tough, that was a big relief. The other day I had wished him good morning and he cried ‘you are late, by five minutes’. That was mind boggling.
I was last night added to CS1E in the name of Mukul Chandra. Dinesh told me of this today in the morning, but still Arun and Dinesh seems to be demanding privacy in the lunch time. I came back home early, the weather was good and though I wanted to stay but I didn’t. I for the first time after a long time spoke to Sonam on her face and that was right before Vibha. Sonam, Vibha and Srishti were sitting behind me. I had asked a doubt, so much expected.
Ma’am was asking about my null attendance in the lab. Sonam was looking pretty in pink t-shirt. 
Present above are the comments under the post Dhan Raj had put on the evening of June 5. It feels amazing how can piss and these people’s faces and still come back again to piss over. Relations with Arun came out to be fruitful; Dinesh and Arun actually want me to put a photo of ‘basmati rice’ in the group so that they can tease Manoj in the name of Akash.
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-28

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June 28, 2011
It was not a nice day at college. I wanted to talk to Rakhi and Sakshi to ask if I interested them enough to form a group with me for the project that we will do from seventeen of next month. I couldn’t reach them as they were with their friends, the most arrogant women of NIEC. I talked to Nidhi instead about this. She is very nice to sound and it was easy to listen to a ‘yes’ from her temporarily, god only knows how he flips my world upside down otherwise. 
Dinesh and Arun were ignoring me, which was creepy. Neha was ignoring me on my face, she would be with Tanvi and it is feels disgusting after having talked to Tanvi. Ravi too has stated ignoring me, goodness of god. 
I was home early after having missed the lab. I got the SDK installer so it wasn’t reasonable to stay there at college. At home both buaji were present. Ankur gets upset when you call him LAALE. He didn’t talk to me once I used the word. Badi buaji brought the calculator after changing. It felt good to have it. I made fake profile of Mukul Chandra and told Dinesh to add me to the group but he told me to say it to Arun. God, whole CS1E is creepy. 
Sonam is still talking to me; she doesn’t seem to have a problem. It is my only moral support towards shit that’s happening at college.
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-27

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June 27, 2011
It was a nice day, hope it would be same forever. The news that I had texted Neha reached Tanvi and she told me not to do that again. I didn’t realize that she was actually talking to me about that. I didn’t cross question and accepted what she demanded. When I turned Neha was there at a quick distance, now picking her bag up. I had a nice day, why was I going to bother about her. 
It was after ages that I was talking to Chirag Dang. He was sitting on my right in the lab, and Hemanshu on the left. They were discussing my act of sending non vegan jokes to girls. It has been ages since that happened, six months. In the break I had lunch with Arun and Dinesh. We discussed the evening of fifth June. I told them that I had just posted that thing to refresh my mood up; Dinesh said it has kept my mood still refreshed. 
Nidhi is oh-so-cute. She does have a boyfriend but she is open to next good guy. When Hemanshu saw her glancing me he pushed me to at least go and say hi. It was after the lab and I just had to come back home early. 
In the morning, I had asked Rakhi for water and she passed that happily. I didn’t know that she was taking the bottle in her mouth to drink. From our seat Arun and I noticed it later and it was a thing of joke on me.
In the lab when you call that lady teacher she would come and put hand on one of your shoulder, sometimes on both when it is a doubt worth paying good time. I had to call her over to my seat again and over again. I made it sure that I don’t overdo it and let her play instead of me trying to climb over. I had been to the library that lady librarian, the forty-naughty-junior was there, she tried to mess it up again. She would talk with other underpaid library keepers and would act like you are the pervert there trying to get a signal to leave after getting your library card.
Vibha was wearing the royal blue color top today. She liked me in that color. Was that to impress me? In the break during theory class I was in canteen and along with the group of Vibha there was group of Aditya except Ravi. I was with Dinesh and group on the entrance and then I was called by Aditya. I went over to them and there were handshakes and hugs. Aditya and Varun are cool guys, Raghav was also present. They appreciated my work on Facebook until now and were asking about what is to come next. They motivated me to continue creating turbulence in CS1E group on Facebook. Still they had to think twice when Raghav told Aditya to add me to the group. It felt good to hear from these guys. 
At the time when I was walking down the street while returning from college I overtook Vibha’s group including Neha. I was trying to catch Ishan and Disha moving ahead of them. Soon as I crossed these people there was a cry that ‘someone hasn’t found a girlfriend yet’, it was Srishti’s voice. I didn’t look back as I had already called Ishan to look back at me at a distance of footsteps now. 
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-26

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June 26, 2011
I was awake early in the morning but couldn’t sit up to study. It was the third day that I did not bother to open the Math book. 
I was napping in the noon. I heard from babaji for this, he is always saying something or the other whenever I am there, though he has been keeping his tone polite. 
I sent non vegan SMS’ to a number of friends of mine, including girls. I had to use my free SMS scheme, there are still 120 left. I was doing that for over two hours and then I was thinking of people I would be texting on the last day and the messages I would be texting. I wanted to study but could not get my mind of unnecessary tensions, lie how to use the left over messages. I had texted Gurarchi as well, Hindi texts this time. She never replied. In the following hours I cleaned my contact list deleting almost every contact, there were close to hundred contacts and there are 45. I have saved those contacts in laptop. I cleaned my inbox, deleting all messages from everyone. Now my phone is clean, my outbox, drafts, and saved. It is feeling much better now, I have decided not to text Sonam for today at least. Of all the recipients, only Sati replied around 1930, a non vegan joke which I immediately deleted.
I was tense whole day about getting a reply from anyone. I had texted Shukla, Akash and Dhanraj a message that of provoking in a way seeing the differences between me and them. I was wondering of receiving a threatening SMS daring me to get to college tomorrow lie how it had happened on the fifth of June. 
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-25

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June 25, 2011
I watched Social Network again. It was a good experience. There were still things to learn. These people returned last night and Prashant was in full mood to be a troublemaker. He sat idly in the tube light with me finding it hard to catch sleep. I can’t lie in one position for more than an hour. Later he went out to sleep in air conditioner. I was also troubled by the shoulder pain, the muscles were still contracted, and also my stomach was upset. 
I woke up in the morning around 0845 and texted Sonam a sentimental message comparing sweet natured people with the best and sweetest chocolate with expiry date. An insatant reply came to ask why I don’t attend to lab sessions. It was funny though I loved to hear from her, it was the first time that she had started a conversation. It last for about four to five texts from each of us. I will be attending lab on Monday.
I wasn’t able to sit myself to study and I resorted to continue resting until forever. I was sleeping in the afternoon and then I had lunch at around 1430. I sat for two hours from three to five and did those three examples left from the topic I had been doing since ages. I went to recharge my phone balance and then I was resting again. It is 2156 now that I might take up books until I go to bed.
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-24

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Mon, Jun 6, 2011 at 12:25 AM Abhishek wrote: KUCHH???? BAHAUT BADA WALA!!!! >B-(
Mon, Jun 6, 2011 at 12:15 AM Kriti wrote: TU KUCH CHUTIYA H KYAA
Mon, Jun 6, 2011 at 12:02 AM Anubhav wrote: What the hell r u trying to prove man...u have lost Ur senses...and you seriously need a mental checkup.....
Sun, Jun 5, 2011 at 10:19 PM Anil wrote: Ashish PAGAL SALLA
Sun, Jun 5, 2011 at 9:25 PM Raj wrote: U r mentally sick.......
Sun, Jun 5, 2011 at 8:03 PM Akash wrote: bloody BC! U r asshole, a big one!!! Stop all this nonsense or you have from me!! N m not kidding! :@
Sun, Jun 5, 2011 at 8:02 PM Akash wrote: bloody BC! U r asshole, a big one!!! Stop all this nonsense or you have from me!! N m not kidding! :@ 
Sun, Jun 5, 2011 at 7:25 PM Abhinav wrote: another tip, don avoid the foreplay, or u can’t enjoy the session ;)
Sun, Jun 5, 2011 at 7:22 PM Abhinav wrote: life n sex r one and a same thing in life either you’re fucking you're getting fucked..... And that’s how the cookie crumbles ;)


June 24, 2011
These are the comments that were posted in five hours under the wall post I had posted about Vibha. I got the copy of these comments tin Gmail account. I just cleaned my Facebook account and sent requests to Prashant sir, Ankit sir, and Saurabh sir. I added more privacy controls on my notes and make sure that my older post about Gareema ma’am is not on the front page of my recent activities. More pictures of Vibha are now in my PC and the video will now look even better. 
Last night, I had told Sonam that she looked FAAD (hot/sexy) in the white t-shirt she was wearing yesterday. Today, she was ignoring me, cool, I can’t feel thing being ignored now. Well, when chicks like Tanvi Gautam and Sakshi Sharma are noticing you, you don’t even have to fucking bother about anyone. I came back home in lunch time as I had already learnt the three programs that students were going to do today. Dinesh and Arun didn’t make any contact other than when Dinesh had pointed to the empty seat in the next row when I had asked him to shift right in the morning. Yesterday, I was feeling like I have found friends again when I had got to eat lunch with them but it is just awesome how the life changes faces. Neha also didn’t say ‘hi’ or ‘hello’. It was first time in two years that I ate in between friends. Vibha is realizing that I am gone; it is clear from her face.
I came back home and logged on to Facebook. Arun and Deepanshu had accepted my friend requests. I cleared all mind boggling conversations from my recent past with Shruti B, Sakshi Sharma, Rakhi, Surbhi and everyone else. 
I am not feeling like studying so I am giving up this day to relaxation.
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-23

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June 23, 2011
Yesterday, there was a theft. Nikunj’s bag was stolen and then emptied and thrown in gent’s toilet. It had her mobile phone and money. I learned it today in the break from Arun and Dinesh. It happened when everybody was attending the lab. I didn’t attend the lab even today. I was thinking about the lady teacher who was roaming the class and was most of the time present around me. In the morning, Prashant sir and Kuldeep sir were sitting in between the students to see the teaching of the external teachers. I was lucky for having entered the class on time today. Tanvi was wearing a wide open neck Kurti like top, her bra strings were clearly visible plus much part of her bosom except from anything in particular, not even breast line though her cleavage ran deep down. It had occupied my thoughts for so long and I was not feeling very happy for having an occupied mind with some shit. Vibha was trying to develop a long distance bridge when she was pushing her open hair to other while talking to those nerds sitting behind her. I looked away.
Chachi and the kids have gone to grandma-in-law. It was surprising to see that the new Dell laptop is not password protected. I was able to login and also connect to the internet. My friend count is 92 now. The CS1E has 46 members and I sent friend requests to Arun, Deepanshu, Abhilash, and Nidhi Garg. I have a feeling that she will not accept though I also sent her a message. She had been squinting behind in the class to see if she was being watched by the back benchers on my side. 
I slept after coming and it is now 1804 and I should better do some math.
Ishan and Disha make a terrible couple still Ishan denied me a seat in the name of no one called Gareema. Huh, yesterday I had lunch with Disha and I thought may be I could befriend these two but I was wrong.
Arun was telling Dinesh to add me again to the group. I was feeling happy about that, plus Arun told me to add him to as friend on Facebook.
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-22

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June 22, 2011
It was a nice day. I was studying early in the morning from three to six. I had done pushups around 0230 in the morning it left my shoulder muscles tight and paining. The pain hasn’t yet gone completely. I slept around six and woke up only around 0915. I reached class at 1020 after having missing the bath. Sir was looking at us late comers (Hemanshu and I) only until he realized that I am not a bad student. I had lunch with Dinesh and the first row monkeys. I was merely present in the class. I didn’t have a choice but to remain there, I would never want to go back to the old times again. Before that, I had seat with Neha and Tanvi when we were studying in other classroom on projector. Tanvi seems to be seeking my attention these days. It is good in the sense that now most of the others are ignoring me, it is almost whole of A-batch in the sense that I am in the eyes of at least one person from every group. Abhishek Shukla and Akash Rajpoot along with Vibha and Dhanraj have been the main drivers of this situation. 
It was going to be practical class after the break and I didn’t want to listen to basics again so gave it a miss. At the time when I was on my way out of the block Sonam stopped and asked me where I was going. I wonder it doesn’t have anything to do with Vibha. Nidhi Garg, the cutie pie from IT branch, notices me. I remember I used to notice her in the first semester but I knew somewhere in my heart that time was going to change. It blanks my mind to see that I am being noticed by Sakshi Sharma, ooh, holy goodness. 
Hemanshu Sharma was asking me what led me to change my look from what it had been in first semester to what it is now in fifth semester. He also referred to my wall post about Gareema ma’am and Tanvi had referred to my profile picture showing Baba Ramdev. They may hate me, or love me, but can’t ignore me.
I came home and watched MILF; I had got this movie from that kid (Pankaj) with the laptop and friends around him outside the locked Dean’s office. They were watching a funny nude scene from this movie. The movie is awesome.
Shruti got admitted in DU for Zoology.
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-21

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June 21, 2011
I had opened the Reliance mobile phone handset the last day. It was fun, I had to throw it away but I was wondering that if I would throw it away in shape, it will surely catch someone’s attention so I just opened it up using the kitchen knife. Last evening I saw Sneha Bhati after such a long time and she was just so sexy. She has now a healthier and mature body than the skinny one. She was just not one of the usual women, and may be a 9.5 on the scale of ten. Ironically, I was noticing about myself that I have lost interest in girls to a whole lot. I am not a lousy pervert anymore.
The second day at college was fine. I sat with Dinesh today and it was good. I was able to understand Java so didn’t make anyone feel bad by presence. Sonam is cute as a child. I have not talked to her since the day I broke up with Vibha. She had given me an intentional look even today. It really boosts my confidence when girls look Sakshi Sharma give me look may be for even first and last time, hardly matters for today. Neha talked to me on the water cooler about the Java book I had issued from library. Tanvi is a fucking whore, she made fun of my hair asking if they had leech, or if I had hair band. I didn’t respond to any of calls to fight. At one time in the class, I had called sir to my seat to ask him a doubt and Vibha screamed from behind to call sir to her seat. Sir immediately left me as he had spent enough time on our seat, but that was still wrong to leave me incomplete. I said to myself in abnormally loud voice, “KUT** SALI!” Dinesh and Arun shook by this. 
I texted Sonam to see if she, too, was angry with me but, unexpectedly, she texted back an excited ‘hi’. It revitalized my energy. We had just started talking and then I found that I had nothing to talk about as she was not angry with me and now there was nothing next. She wrote to me in Hindi a quote using the respectful form of ‘you’ instead of writing on a friendly note using normal language. I had laugh on it and expressed the same in words and next message she sent was ‘talk to you later’ though I had written ‘sorry and I agree with you’ after it. I realized that it wasn’t screwed until now, but now it is screwed. I forwarded her a joke and slept. Her reply another quote “Satisfaction is the highest level of happiness and it is easily attained when you have no expectations from anyone” came around 2130. Though the quote is right but it is not meant for me. I had already gone to bed by now leaving the math book until dawn.
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-20

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June 20, 2011
It was my first day at college after fourth semester. I wasn’t expecting anyone to talk to me and I was down to the ground whole day long. It was Arushi, Parul, Tanvi and Abhilash whom I saw first and there were second section students. I saw Tarang Mahajan in the empty class and I got with him, soon there were other unknowns of second section. I talked to Ravi who was here with his friends of other section and I talked to him about the post of 5th June, about internship and about this summer training. At least, he was there with to talk, I am glad. Anshul sir sent Java kids to the third floor. I met with Dinesh, Koli, Sati, Irfan and others there. Vibha’s group was there but I didn’t pay attention. I learned that Dinesh didn’t even know about what I had posted and it was just the messages of Dhanraj and others that he deleted me. He was not holding any grudge against me, nor was many others. There were a lot of handshakes, but still I missed a friend. I didn’t say hi or hello to Sonam though she had eyed me very closely from her place in between the group. Her group was noticing me from time to time. Even Neha said ‘hi’ when she had crossed me once. I was sitting with Mukul Chandra in the beginning and I didn’t push myself to seat with anyone in particular so just sat with him. I was better off alone than following stupid people like Dinesh, Sati or anyone else. 
The teachers who came were looking like someone from the streets of Shastri Park. Shaqeel Dinesh, an Osama Bin laden look-alike and other was looking like his daughter who just sat and smiled through the day. I had reached college at 0900 and the class started only by 1030 and there was then break of about one and half hour, then a class of about an hour until 1515. I came back home around 1630, had lunch, a conversation with babaji about the class, and then I spent time in creating a video out of photos of Vibha with a Hindi explicit song as playback. I didn’t have appropriate song so I went down to meet Amogh, Hardik, Appu and Pranav. Hardik broke the bulb in the room of the guards/ electricians to rest. That was crazy, I was telling them no but they were not going to listen. I got the song and the video is ready!
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-19

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June 19, 2011
At badi buaji’s house, I was supposed to drink milk before going to bed at night. Badi buaji didn’t give it for quite a many days after two or three times in the beginning and she told me that I should take the milk by myself because once gets into bed it becomes difficult for her to get up and work. During the last week buaji while providing the milk taunted me for not taking the milk over these days when she had told me to take the milk myself. It wasn’t actually what she said, it did come to my mind once or twice but there wouldn’t be any milk on the gas and I will have to work right from the scratch from taking the milk out from the fridge, to pouring boiled milk into glass. That was really bad to see such an attitude from her. Another thing was that I used to feel uncomfortable there when fufaji or buaji would come to the room where I would take a little rest after studying and they would eye like I am doing something wrong. That was bad, it is obvious that it would have made me feel uncomfortable and it did. I wasn’t able feel like home there until the last day.
I was searching for my green side bag and I just found the blue-black single-strap back-pack there in the cupboard. I used to use many years before when I was in middle school. It had belonged to Anu before that. I gave it to Raju's mother, when I was giving it Raju’s mother reminded me that I had once told Raju of some books. That was good; she wasn’t on the road when I had instantly stopped him to say that. I have story books to give him though.
I got new sandals today. I had gone with Anu to do the purchasing. She got me 20 percent discount from the scratch coupon that had 5 to 25 percent discount. I bought the sandals for R520. Plus, it was the last day of the three day offer of discount using the scratch card. On the way to the shop we were met by Ajir and other person who knew Anu. On the time of return Vinayak and Shubham crossed us. Anu asked why didn’t say hello to them. God, they are from the times gone by, also in summers they can always be found in the market. 
God bless me
Ashish

2011-Jun-18

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June 18, 2011
My Facebook friend count is continuously decreasing, it is 93 today, it was 94 about five days back, and it was 102 on the evening of fifth June. What do I do? 
I am doing math, I am preparing plans to put math syllabus out before September. The day was fine otherwise. I slept for eight hours last night, and I didn't bath today. I have to say this because it has a sure tendency to become a big issue if I repeat this tomorrow. I want to study but I feel out of energy. 
I am thinking of wishing a scanner from Rekha buaji. The idea just came to my mind otherwise I was thinking of clothes, woolen sweaters, jeans, t-shirts. 
College reopens on 20th. 
Prachi came here today; she will leave for Dharamshala at four in the morning tomorrow. 
God bless me
Ashish