Ask ‘Why’ Five Times…

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Asking ‘Why’ five times to clarify my intentions and motivations, deeper reasons, personal values and motivations of why I do that what I do...

    1. Why do you study ML (or algorithms, or whatever)?

To be able to crack interviews.

    2. Why do you want to crack interviews?

To be able to get a project (before today: it was to get a better job)

    3. Why do you want to get a project / job?

To earn money.

    4. Why do you want to earn money?

To live a comfortable life… with, maybe, decent standards of living.

Well, no, I responded to question in two points in the above answer almost to the point of justifying my current situation and way of life.

So, I would rather say: “To live comfortably” 

But then even now it seems to reveal an escalating loop in my thinking: “I am choosing an uncomfortable way of life to seek a comfortable life.”

And the grey area appears: I don't want to think of my way as the way of delayed gratification. Because no book on delayed gratification tells you how delayed it is going to be.

And then I recall my learnings from Buddhism and reckon “There is no such thing as comfortable life. Everyone suffers.”

    5. THE LAST ‘WHY’

Assuming my last answer (“to live comfortably“) was okay and accepted.

Then I ask again “Why live comfortably?”

I am not getting any thoughts, other than thinking of myself as a hedonist... 

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