June 6, 2011
I feared of any consequences from what happened yesterday. I went to a corner place to revise my subject in the morning. I met with section S2 students, Shashi Raja who seemed to be friendly and his other friends. The exam went better than fine, I found the paper easy. I had wished Sonam for her birthday, and also asked to say sorry to Vibha. Last night around, 1am Kriti Bahl had called me 'CH**IYA’ on comments. It was not enough for me to remove the post but then I thought of Vibha and finally removed it.
I came home and slept. Buaji was asking me about plans for returning back home. While I was sleeping I had been contacted by Sonam, and she wanted me to put public apology post on Facebook, and to also contact Vibha directly.
Ankur is not interested in making any contact with me. That’s seriously ill. I have been removed from CS1E, which was way too surprising. I can still feel adrenaline rush inside me. Dinesh can’t do that. Last night my friend count had come down from 102 to 99 and then now it is 97, I hope it will go down.
It is that perfect moment for which I had always been waiting, I am universally hated.
God bless me
Ashish
June 5, 2011
It was Baba Ramdev all over the news yesterday. His speeches, his wishes, the topics which he discussed, black money, corruption, and everything that this country has. Badi buaji watched television at ear bursting volume. She has this small television of the dimensions of my forearm, and the noise that it creates has no dimensions. I went down to avoid adrenaline production inside of me by this blood boiling news that was coming. The atrocity that government showed by sending cops and moving the peacefully sleeping people by the full use of their power. A non violent movement’s meeting spot turned into butcher house by Delhi police.
I posted ‘Fuck the government, let righteousness win, let baba Ramdev win’, changed my display picture to one of those Ramdev’s, and created an album to post two of his movement’s photos. As a matter of fact I was listening to Eminem’s ‘way I am’ for a while before logging on to Facebook.
I couldn’t concentrate that was the thing that was eating me. I went up around eleven to bath and fresh, I pushing through the day with regular jobs. It was around lunch time that badi buaji came to me to disclose Prxnt’s AIEEE result. He got around 1700 in state and 19000 in country, that’s really surprising from him. I didn’t know how to react, I wasn’t finding philosophies and logics to fit me into the situation and help me deal with the situation. I couldn’t help myself with it; it was all over my mind, the Ramdev, the AIEEE result.
I was getting too much worried due to still remaining course in CG and then all this trouble through the day. I went down logged on to Facebook and brain ran. I manipulated a wall post of Vibha to my advantage. I wrote, “While performing, Vibha said, “Sex is damn simple, but we insist on making it complicated,” I told her, “Life is damn simple, but we insist on making it complicated,” and she put that up as her wall post.”
Abhinav Choudhary of S2 came up to comment and ‘like’ in my post, we went on to discussing basics of sex, foreplay, and how it compares with life. It was really insisting to read everything written under that post. Ravi was online, I made him read the post, and his first reaction came, “OMG” as usual for every post by me. He asked me to remove that post right away, but I wished I was listening. Vibha started texting, and calling. I got calls from Dhanraj, he even called at home. I was afraid when Anu had called back on badi buaji’s phone to get to me, I thanked god that it was Anu. The post had collected comments at the speed of one-comment-every-hour. People were abusing me, threatening me publicly and on messages. I learned that Vibha had removed me from her friends. I wasn’t worried a bit for her; it was the other people Akash Rajpoot, Dhanraj who were making me tense by threatening me. Abhishek Shukla had showed disliking. By the time it was night, there was comment ‘Ashish PAGAL SALA’ by Anil Goel. I had done my best to keep the phone in the setting that was least disturbing from time to time. It was feeling really tense for the exam, and then I thought of Vibha, I pictured her breaking down by all what I had done, and messing up her exam. I called to know what was going on with, I had called to calm her and myself down, but that stiff tone was way too much. She was showing me attitude, what the hell man, and she then informed me that she even removed me from her friends like I didn’t know or I was giving a fuck to what she says. My balance came down from 20.232R to something like ten, which sucks. Internet on phone had started to work, and it was really helpful in keeping me up to date with the happenings under my post.
God bless me
Ashish
June 4, 2011
It was going to be normal but it had never happened with me that let me stay on the top, and then I’d not take a risk to look down and just get pulled down. Manju buaji was to visit us today, she came by 1330. I was napping until then; it was because of the tiredness that had accumulated because of waking up early in the morning at 0400 when fufaji put off the cooler. I had a lot to do, I only got over with OS by the evening and this day was actually for CG. Mother of god come and bless me! Babaji sent Rs 500 for me, that was good, but it only made me feel uncomfortable, pushing me to act more responsibly.
I was way too nervous about taking up CG, I was started with t anew topic which I had to finish in an hour or so, but it didn’t get over by the time I slept dead. I was sitting downstairs on the computer to relax but guess I was wrong.
Ankur is showing way too much attitude, what is wrong with this douchebag. Is it that now he is not talking to Puja, or what, why would it be Shruti then? Shruti would continue to speak ill until he would give up and do what buaji and Shruti wishes him to. Last night I had fill cooler because this idiot is not in any mood to make it any comfortable for me, another Prashant is born.
God bless me
Ashish
June 3, 2011
It was a fine day, I was feeling relaxed as there is three day gap between yesterday’s paper and the paper on sixth. I studied OS whole day. It was really tiring last night and it felt good to sleep last night. I was checking out playboy website in the morning and I don’t know like into porno again, it is sick when you feel the urge to do that. It is like a drug addiction, feels really sick and weak inside.
I was studying in my place in the evening and Shruti comes here to talk. Buaji was keeping a check on us when our conversation was going on.
Vibha was texting me since morning, I didn’t reply to the morning message and then in the evening when her second message of the day came, I didn’t bother. In the fifth message she wrote. “Ignorance is a chain”. I did not give a f*ck, and her sixth message came around ten asking me if was angry on her, and she told me not to worry about the exam as I am capable enough; I believe that was a demeaning truth. I went down around 2210 and wished her best of luck for exams and also for the night with a kiss. The problem was that Ankur had been sitting downstairs on fufaji’s computer, fufaji was reading a book, and Rakesh hadn’t left yet. It has been time when second message of Vibha had come around 1830. Rakesh didn’t go until 2030 and after that Ankur sat on the machine to study, I couldn’t have said anything. He had heard from fufaji and badi buaji over the phone calls he get whole day long and Shruti had told buaji about this girl calling him innumerable times. He was angry over Shruti and partially over me. He deleted the Playboy movie which I had downloaded. I didn’t say anything.
Amma had called and I also talked to babaji.
God bless me
Ashish
June 2, 2011
I didn’t do well in the exam. I had totally lost my vision while stretching in the chair downstairs around 0630 when I went down to check email. That was way too serious, I was feeling weak inside ever after, I took a pill and held myself up to keep going. I was feeling sick in my stomach as well. I denied eating bread and had milk with just one bread piece, last bite of which I threw out of the window. I was really while writing the exam and the paper was not as difficult as I feared but it barely affected me. I am still hanging to look forward for mercy and miracle.
I came home and didn’t get to listen much from buaji because of the way I missed sleep last night. Buaji was showing worry, but I did get to listen again for not managing time well.
When I learned about Microsoft certifications from the cover page of one those computer course books of fufaji, I was really excited then and ever since 30 May.
I went down and Vibha was there to talk. I went on to abusing and sex-chatting with her, setting up new heights of vulgarity every time. I made her upset, it went on to become uglier until I was off the computer and she lately texted me that she just took all the bullshit because she love me, any other girl would have slapped. It was 2200 then, and now at 2300 she texted ‘sorry’. This girl is totally on my d**k.
Ankur is really angry over me because I would silent his phone and Puja will keep calling without a reply, lately she sent message via someone else that she won’t be able to call or text. Ankur was really upset when he could get her to talk, he is upset over me and he would threaten in the name of my notebook computer which he would call ‘rat’.
Babaji has got stone n the stomach, it is really sad because he will have to go under operation to correct it. He has been talking to me on phone sometimes and…
God bless me
Ashish
June 1, 2011
I had to do start CS syllabus, I was snoozing around in the house until 1100 when thought to start studying. I was feeling so tired in my body. I had to find something to motivate myself to sit up and give the books a look. I couldn’t have studied from book so I thought to just go through the notes in hurry. Plus, it was only today that Shruti had to take me to the temple. These people are so out of their mind and not forgetting the way Shruti would keep talking all the time, there is a serious change in her so suddenly.
The other day I stayed awake just to talk to her, I am so inclined towards not mising a chance to get with girls, any girl. She would talk about her grand mother who is reallly a bitch to her, and how she has been spoiling her parents’ lives.
In the afternoon buaji took us, children, out for lunch with Kapil bhaiya (one of her client and contact) as guest. I didn’t know there was a place like Chawri Bazar in Delhi, the buidlings were mostly 150 to 200 years old, and the illegal constructed balcony from every building was a must watch thing. Then we went to a shop where Ankur had to shop cloth for himself. It was getting late and I was really getting worried by now. Shruti and I came home around 1500 and thoug I didn’t want ot sleep I slept for two hours. I woke up and started studying, holy shit. I had started to get the nightmares of flunking the exam. I pulled up as much as I could, around 0000 buaji put the light off of the room where three of us were lying. It was sick, I waited for about half and hour and then turned the lights on to study. It was all windy outside, heavy door bangning monsoon winds were blowing. I studied until five and then I just got to take some rest irresistably until 0630. Fear was still looming over head.
I had got missed call notification from amma when my phone was switched off.
God bless me
Ashish
May 31, 2011
It was fun to write the exam, DCS. The paper format was simple like all the previous years. We had to make a choice of 4 questions from 7 questions. First question was compulsory. I got along with Ravi and the group, Vibha was ignoring me as always. Huh, I didn’t mind as I got the company of Ravi and Varun, who joined us later, while travelling in the Metro, talking to him was fun and he too enjoyed me, he said.
I came home and it was all a crash after that. Yesterday, I had to call amma because she had called when my phone was silent. I was not done yet and it was not very pleasant to lie to her, though it is fine today after the paper went fine. I had lunch and then I wanted to sleep but then Shruti showed interest in talking. That was good, I didn’t mind talking to her and missing sleep, it until five that I was still trying to catch sleep while handling Shruti. I couldn’t sleep today, in the evening when I had gone down, Shruti followed. She logged on to Facebook and made me chat with a freak that would occasionally send her messages to talk. I pretended to be horny slut in the name of Shruti Jain and then eventually insulted him from time to time. Later Shruti blocked and reported him. Shruti was at all times sitting there when the sex chat was going.
I couldn’t do my own thing as it was late 2030 when we were called up for dinner and talk with Shruti continued.
The thing is she didn’t let me study, huh.
I had sent Vibha ‘do you want to have sex?’ and she responded ‘obviously not, you desperado’. At night she had wished me good night with a kiss. I was removed from the friend list of someone after I put that post about Gareema ma’am yesterday. It was funny.
Ankur asked me for the computer and I had to tell him ‘no’, it was difficult though, and he is really upset with me. He has hid his earphones which I would occasionally use, funny.
God bless me
Ashish
May 30, 2011
I had three days to prepare for DCS and also catch up a little bit with CS, but I barely made any use of this time, I would over sleep and download movies, sex chat, everything to everything but not study. The day had been crazy with me trying to catch up with DCS. I had no option left but to miss some of the topics, and I did nothing extra other than a few topics which are occasionally discussed in the exam. (And as a matter of fact, the paper was very easy and very choosy. I chose to do questions from the first five chapters and the questions were pretty easy. Also because of not enough preparation I was very nervous before the exam and I had forgotten everything from new topics I had studied in these three days gap, which was really shameful.)
I by the end of the day managed to put my self up for revision but that barely happened. It was eleven when I chose to sleep and wake up at four in the morning. It was seven when I woke up next day and I had to start revision in the Metro, and buaji would keep telling me to aim for 100 percent.
God bless me
Ashish
May 29, 2011
I went to temple today. I wasn’t going to go on my own; it was buaji who took me to Birla temple.
I had been sitting downstairs to study DCS and buaji first started with rebuking me for going down right in the morning and then continued with her plans to go to temple. Ankur had been there when I left the office and then he left the doors opened, badi buaji was questioning me about this, I told her it was Ankur sitting there. It was not just this that such a scene had happened; very often she would question me for wrong doings of Shruti and Ankur. Yesterday there was a glass and bowl kept in the corner of the room and buaji started asking me about them in my name. Then she would keep a check on me, which is understandable as I don’t have a clean image anywhere.
I was adding friends on Facebook and it now blocked my requests and messages to non-friend people for four days. That’s funny, and then I posted about Gareema ma’am. Vibha had super-disliked it in comments and Ravi had flipped out after reading this, funny!
***JOB VACANCY***Lecturer for CS Department
If you are a brunette who can excessively roll her tongue to bear an out-of-the-world accent, can keep HOD/Dean/Director (whoever is male) happy bi-weekly then you get a direct pass for being a lecturer at NIEC, New Delhi. ***You now know how Gareema SETHI became a teacher, HAA-HAA***
Aditya Gupta: HAHAHAHA, first line had me in splits!!!! awesome
God bless me
Ashish
May 28, 2011
The day was fine. In the morning fufaji was screaming that opened my eyes. He is into Ankur every morning, he keeps telling him to study, buaji keeps telling him to do homely work and for his fatness, Shruti keeps telling him about his fatness, and I tell him to stop thinking about Puja, his phony girlfriend.
I had to wake up at 4am adter going to bed early but that didn’t happen. I was napping again in the morning after breakfast, I mean I was scanning question papers in the morning, and theni washed my undergarments, it was all tiring. I had to sleep for three hours or so, as it happened. Buaji talked about this right after, she had started to tell me about studying and scoring these days. Something is wrong.
I need to give attention to my books other than computer stuff al the time, downloading torrents, wikipedia pages, etc.
God bless me
Ashish
May 27, 2011
The exam (ADA) went fine, I don’t know; I flunked ITC of first semester, C of second semester, and DS of third semester. All of them core computer subjects. It is unbelievable. I am skeptical about commenting on my marks henceforth. Badi buaji asked me to estimate marks and I rounded up to 60. That doesn’t sound very reasonable seeing my previous performances. I would not flunk because I got 21 in internals this much I am sure about; special thanks to Prashant sir for that reason. I was talking to Vibha and then to Sonam, Sonam ignores me sometimes because I use only English while talking.
I was watching Die Hard 4 on notebook and badi buaji came and lectured me over watching movies in this high time for exams, she was very right, but I couldn’t control myself. After she had lectured me she went somewhere for hours and I continued watching the awesome movie with fear. The movie was extremely good.
In the lunch buaji had ordered food from outside, I ate noodles and Shruti had sambar-vada. It was good.
Badi buaji is getting strict about my habit of spending time on computer and she now wants me to concentrate on exams and come as number one, the last clause is a total joke!
God bless me
Ashish
May 26, 2011
The day was fine. I went downstairs to check emails from Playboy and it was the first time that buaji asked about what I was doing. It didn’t become an issue. I was sleeping for three hours right after having heavy breakfast, I didn’t ask for the fourth bread but it happened to me.
I was studying until six in the evening and then I went down and couldn’t get away with computer after that, it is about to be nine now.
I am not giving the back papers and it is really a big relief. Elders don’t know about it formally. I just hope that everything goes well.
God bless me
Ashish
May 25, 2011
The exam was fine; actually, the paper had been leaked. Abhishek Shukla came late around 0945 to disclose the questions to us. I was sitting with Dinesh at that moment. The questions paper had questions from the topics which Shukla had disclosed. I was feeling lucky for having been comfortable in writing the exam. It wasn’t difficult, whatever might its level be.
I was sleeping in the afternoon after watching Playboy video I had put on downloading yesterday. It is awesome. I woke up around 1830 to talk to Vibha, and she spared me after an hour of little questioning. She was ignoring me in the morning before her friends, she always does that. I am just giving her little importance because of Sonam, nothing else.
I have been killing little insects for quite some time now, which includes spiders, bees, mosquitoes, flies, and all. I don’t think they, the insects, really have to be alive for the human life to keep going.
IITJEE result declared but no news from Mayur Vihar, you surely know what that mean. I learned about the result declaration on internet while chatting.
God bless me
Ashish
May 24, 2011
I was napping through the day, fufaji is really a mess when he comes and puts off cooler at around 0430 in the morning. That is not sad but way more than that. I was awake around 0400 in the morning after going through night-fall. That virtual experience of having sex with a busty blonde with her back against the wall was really awesome. It was also a reason for the tiredness that persisted in my body until afternoon. The friend of fufaji suggested Shruti to become a teacher after doing honors in English. I was tired again in the afternoon and just passed the time in changing places to feel comfortable. It was really scary, I didn't cover ADA as much as I had thought, the thought dropping down the subject revitalizing enough but I didn't make proper use of it. By evening I had dropped a lot of things off my to-do list, at night I was thinking of taking a short nap around 2330 but then I stretched out to hours. Vibha wanted to talk yesterday evening but I did not bother to answer.
Plus most of the times it is only porno on my mind, American pie, Playboy, and all. I have put one on downloading and it is just those videos which are a part of my attention and time table.
God bless me
Ashish
May 23, 2011
The day was normal, it had to be exhausting but it didn't come out to be. I was sleeping in the afternoon, which was relaxing. In the evening I was downstairs in the office, I didn't talk to Vibha who had asked me the definition of ‘open relationship' to start a conversation.
I am still hanging on ADA that was to be completed by yesterday.
I talked to babaji on phone for the first time since coming here.
Shruti's result declared today. She got 68%; she did great in English scoring 95, she got 89 in biology and other subjects, especially math, brought her percentage down.
God bless me
Ashisha
May 22, 2011
It is a terrible day. I can't concentrate; I didn't concentrate for even a slight moment, that's crazy. And after that I want pornography to refresh myself up after doing nothing for so long, holy shit.
Some people in Rohini attacked a Jain munimaharaj. It is in newspaper. That's unbelievable, that's sick.
I talked to Vibha in the evening after days of wait. Though she started it but I really responded like I want her. Sonam has really a f***ed up English. She makes mistakes in common sentences; that's really sad.
I heard about babaji that he has been seriously ill with kind of problem that I had in summers of 2009, gonorrhea type, not that exactly.
God bless me
Ashish
May 21, 2011
I had to wish uncle for birthday because buaji wanted me to. I wished using Ankur's phone without letting him know, but related to him as 'chachaji'.
In the evening, fufaji brought fried eatables like Samosa, pakoda, gol-gappe and all. At the end when we started to eat gol-gappe I had to use a spoon to fill the gol-gappe and I had to use the spoon which was there. I don't know what happened but whichever spoon I took fufaji used that and put it down after licking. What the hell was that? It happened not just once but with both the spoons that I got to use.
UCSD, the university where Rashmi would go is world number 65. That's really awesome, but every university in America is one of the best in the world so one shouldn't be surprised.
I have to stop into downloading movies; I have to stop right fucking now.
I sent Vibha Bhardwaj an open relationship proposal, the request is pending for her to accept but my relationship status has been changed from 'married' to 'in an open relationship'. The CS1E hates me so they didn't give any attention to this one either. My last comment on Dhanraj's 13 in ADA internal 'sir fucked up Dhanraj' was also deleted from under the wall post, huh!
God bless me
Ashish
May 20, 2011
The other day Ankur had asked me for the notebook and I couldn’t concentrate in my studies thereafter at any moment. It was so silly but true, I think I had CG practical the next day.
I had to go to college to get the admit card and to return a book in library. There had been no water in taps due to some construction work in pipelines in this area somewhere. I am being friends with the friends of Vibha and it is like she my link to the CS1E. I am in love with this chic right now. I walked Srishti Jain a little distance outside college; it was the first time that I talked to her.
I was studying SE whole day long trying to complete it, but it is not possible for a slack like me.
Oh god, time of pen drive is almost over. I am worried, and I worry also a lot about downloading movies in this crucial time.
Rashmi admitted to University of California, San Diego. That’s awesome! Ankur was chatting with her in the morning and I just learnt it from their conversation.
God bless me
Ashish
May 19, 2011
I had to finish revising SE but I spent too much time in watching porn I guess, life sucks when time is crucial. I was watching playboy website when that guy, a frequent visitor here, a client badi buaji was there at the door, I am glad I wasn’t seeing anything naked at that moment just a blonde girl’s face on the screen. I just missed; later I was watching photos of girls on Facebook and fufaji entered the room, huh, I had to close it again.
Vibha writes stupid quotes and I thought if I should talk to her but then she wouldn’t reply; this girl is crazy.
Badi buaji took Shruti to court in the morning and I had whole day alone at home but I didn’t make any great use of it, I am still doing the ninth question of the unit of 25 questions I started from the SE assignment of 100 questions. God, help me.
Kanika Sahni removed me from her friends list, that’s sick. I had a rotten tongue while talking to her the first and the last time.
God bless me
Ashish
May 18, 2011
I had CG today. I came unprepared for this. It was that bad though. I was nervous all the time because of low confidence, that’s what happens when you don’t study. Sir gave six easiest experiments to do on the choice of the students, I had done Bresenham’s line algorithm but sir gave DDA algorithm. It is amazing that I knew nothing of CG on the day of external practical exam. As a matter of fact, Anshul sir had asked the applications of CG and I couldn’t put my innumerable thoughts into words. I made stupid face to make him pass the question onto Irfan. Vibha was again a great help, she told me the algorithm and I just put that into coding, because anyway it wasn’t going to be seen. I was hopeless without her help. I learned a few basic things about CG while trying my hand out on the computer during the practical exam. I got 12, Irfan got 13, Faizan got 12, Nitish got 16, Vibha got 15 and Shukla also got something close to 12. That means viva wasn’t that bad.
I came home with a lot of hope of starting for exams early but then I ended up watching Halloween (9), great movie about Michael Myers. There were a lot nude scenes, it was a great entertainment, a must watch.
I was sitting in Ankur’s room and he would not let me turn on the fan, according to him if fan rotates the room would not cool, like it was ever going to cool by an obsolete water cooler. Badi buaji interrupted from my side, and Shruti joined in from Ankur’s side to tell me that I should be sitting in other room and install cooler there, was that a joke! Ankur later said sorry by SMS while we were in the same room and there are no issues now. I was really angry otherwise, and guess what Shruti had later come to me to tell me that I should switch on fan quietly when Ankur is asleep after ten.
God bless me
Ashish
